Ever feel like you don't know what tomorrow will bring let alone a whole year?
8 beautiful daughters,who would have thought?
I am so blown away by what my life has been this last year that I hesitate to speculate what may come in the future.
I have been sifted and am still being sifted, there is so much that I have yet to learn and I often find myself feeling like I have nothing to offer someone else. I am in the place where I don't even feel worthy to write in this blog, I don't have a bunch of exciting thoughts to share. This is really a strange place for me to be in. It's awkward when you can't find words to express your thoughts. When I speak the words resonate empty and dry which makes me want to draw back from speaking my thoughts, out loud. There's not much to give, when you feel so empty?
What about you? Have you ever felt like you were empty? When words fail to express your feelings? And you walk around in a daze just kinda wondering all kinds of things, but not sure what to do next?
Even so, let me leave you with this truth;
I am deeply moved when I think about the Love of my life.
His name is......Jesus and the wonderful cross is where I fall.
Me, hubby and children along with Cambodian friends
P.S. The adopted children are doing great, and I am amazed by God's goodness to me in this area. Please continue to pray for our family as I believe we are where we are only by the Grace of God and nothing from myself.
Cindy - whether you think you have the right words or not, can I just say that your life is an encouragement to me. Honestly, you NOT having the right words is an encouragement to me because I, too, am finding it difficult to describe/explain all that I am feeling/walking through, etc. Please keep writing - you are one step (at least!) ahead of me, and so many others, even your 'not knowing' and 'emptiness' encourages so many of us coming behind you!!!!! Your weakness and dependency on Jesus encourages my heart more than you will ever know! Hugs!
ReplyDeleteI very much feel the same. Empty, but so full. Waiting without vision, vision but no road yet to take. yup, without God I'd be lost. Guess I am in a waiting mode, but surer than sure that He will direct my path and lead me on roads of righteousness because of His Name.
ReplyDeleteyour family is blessed and is beautiful.
Kimmie
mama to 8
one homemade and 7 adopted